I need motivations....

*Sighhhs*
I am emotionally depressed. After spending one week in school, I still can't accept the fact that Pn. Wong isn't our Add Maths teacher; Pn. Lim isn't our Chemistry teacher and Pn. Ding isn't our form teacher for this magical year.

Why why WHYYY???

Chemistry and Add Maths periods are not the same anymore.
I've lost my interest in those subjects. :(
They are the reason why I fell in love with those subjects.
I need someone to talk to right now (not the school councilor, not my parents, not my siblings...). I just don't know who!

Even for Add Maths, it's so depressing to do exercises in the workbook because I am used to doing exercises in my exercise books. No more clear explanations and tough examples.

Our used-to-be-fun Chemistry lessons are now serious and tense Chemistry lessons.
No more cracking jokes or whatsoever. No more fooling around. No more teasing Diandra. No more literally LAUGHING OUT LOUD. No more talking in class. No more going to the Chemistry lab for lessons except for conducting experiments. No more fun.

It's just that I miss my old teachers. This is the first time I'm saying that I MISS my teachers badly especially Pn. Lim!!! :((
So many people miss Pn. Lim.....

I'm in a very depressed state and I'm going nuts.
Everything in this world is ugly!!

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY???

Somebody tell me WHY my life is so miserable?!!

Of all the days....

WHY must it be the day that I had a big bottle of cold water, specially prepared by me for me. It's a typical hot Sunday afternoon. And there I was preparing myself for 2 continuous ballet classes. Every time in class I would crave for cold drinks. I would not let that happen today. :P So, I put heaps and heaps of ice in my bottle, put in the freezer and wait for it to become cold. I had a sense of accomplishment after that. XD

I drank quite a lot of cold water at the studio because it was so hot.

Then I went home and realized my period came today. == DAMN! I'll have period pain tonight. Good luck to me tonight! =S Tonight is gonna be a tough night. Should I just pop some painkiller? Or should I bear with it? It's not good to pop painkillers every now and then. :(

I'm so hungry now. Had only brunch and two slices of watermelons as lunch. Poor me. The book I mentioned earlier is da bomb. I can't stop reading last night and I read the book until 2am last night! I got up at 9am today and started reading until noon! :P See how addictive it is? It's a MUST READ book!!

Oh! Oh! I forgot to mention that ballet class today was fun! XD Miss Iris (the macho woman as Emily like to call her that) was making our legs stretch. I was impressed that I can go a 180 degrees upright when she pushed my leg up. I hate the stretching the hip area. It was freaking painful okay? You can actually feel your joints rubbing together to form a crack sound. And the pain is not some kind of muscle pain, it's the type of 'bone' pain. I'm not sure whether it's the bone or just some tendons or whatever-you-call-it. I've not covered that in Biology yet. I'm eager to do so.. ;D Anyway, Morgane helped me into a head stand position when Miss Iris was stretching other people. Morgane can do a head stand all by herself! :O

Wow. It's June tomorrow. I envy my brother as he can drive starting tomorrow! :(